Tag Archives: Panic disorder

Better?

Things have seemed to be getting better lately. So why am I still having the GOD-DAMNED panic attacks? They aren’t as bad as they were a few months ago but they are still there. Almost everyday I think about having … Continue reading

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This Guy

This Guy: Having suffered from Panic Attacks most of my adult life I have spent most of my waking life preparing or anticipating for that pain that will result in my sudden death, in other words I’ve only been living to … Continue reading

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The Eve of my Prohibition

The Eve of My Prohibition: Without alcohol I won’t be able to self medicate and because I’m having anxiety attacks again I’m just worried as hell. What if I can’t stop drinking because I’m afraid that I won’t have that … Continue reading

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This is what a Panic Attack feels like…

This is what a Panic Attack feels like…:  I need to calm down….I need to calm down….I need to calm down….I need to calm down….this is a bad one….this is a bad one…this is a real bad one…I’m repeating myself, … Continue reading

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Can you Hear me Now?

Can you Hear me Now?:  But these would be the types of things my mother would often hope to find as she searched for anything that would incriminate her child of anything she could use at the right moment, her … Continue reading

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Tired of Life in General

Tired of Life in General: I’m getting tired of life in general. I mean the monotony and the senselessness of this whole existence.

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High Anxiety

I cannot tell you how many times between my 20’s and 30’s I would rush to the emergency room believing that I was having a heart attack. Generally they would ask me if I had smoked pot (apparently pot leaves one … Continue reading

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