Category Archives: Life and Living

God I am a “Piece of Shit”

I was recently called a “Piece of Shit” by a person I used to consider a family member. I think I might actually qualify for this denigrating label. When I read back through a number of my postings I can’t … Continue reading

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Better?

Things have seemed to be getting better lately. So why am I still having the GOD-DAMNED panic attacks? They aren’t as bad as they were a few months ago but they are still there. Almost everyday I think about having … Continue reading

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100 Days!

So today marks 100 days without a drink. I have 26 more to go and then I will be allowed to drink again. It was my annual New Year resolution to quit drinking until an event. This year the event is … Continue reading

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I Am Depressed

I Am Depressed:  I admit it, I am depressed and with all my other problems, I am sad, perpetually sad…

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Lay Me Down to Rest

Lay Me Down to Rest:  I have said before and I will say I’m not a good person. My husband loves me, this much I know, but he has become accustomed to me, the type of passionate love that two … Continue reading

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Why are you Patronizing Me?

Why are you Patronizing Me?: Earlier I checked my phone and I had received a text from him that he must have sent last night while I was sleeping asking me if this is the way I was going to … Continue reading

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STOP READING MY BLOG!

STOP READING MY BLOG!: Remember my friends, those close to me, the relationships that you attacked and accused me of sleeping with the people or betraying you to them, accusing me of telling them our deepest darkest secrets?  

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Good-Bye 2016

Good-Bye 2016: I remember my mother many times during my youth looking at my father, either drunk and talking too much or sober and lying on his couch with his crossword puzzle book for hours on end and she would … Continue reading

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The Eve of my Prohibition

The Eve of My Prohibition: Without alcohol I won’t be able to self medicate and because I’m having anxiety attacks again I’m just worried as hell. What if I can’t stop drinking because I’m afraid that I won’t have that … Continue reading

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Dear Mr. Trump…

Dear Mr. Trump: My only true fear about the Fascist Government you represent is that your eventual “impeachment” will result in a religious fanatic taking your place, the “Holy Reverend” Pence with his biblical words of hate and discrimination   … Continue reading

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